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This is not easy. I'm trying to stay busy and avoid doomscrolling but its SO HARD. Trying to work on fanfiction but its SO HARD WHEN ALL YMY IDEAS ARE DRY. I should probably EAT LUNCH but I'm NOT IN THE MOOD. This suck ASS. Can't use tumblr or youtube. 

Need... stimulation... ugggggggghhhhhhhh

 

I'm trying to write this to take my mind off of it.I haven't used youtube in the past few days and have been meditating instead and it's been nice. I meditated this morning and it was nice. Saw a hawk outside, I think it was Apollo or Hekate giving me a sign. I felt it looking through me, almost like it's watching over me? I know Apollo is associated with hawks and Hekate isn't, but it felt like Hekate giving me a sign that's she's watching over me. If not, then Apollo telling me he liked my music offering :)

Ugh. The only thing I can do right now to keep me busy is clean. Yeah. No...